They call some of us Saints

I have internet in my room now. Funny how these things tend to just 'happen' all of the sudden.

So Kelli- I'll be all by myself in my house for a couple days leading up to Christmas. Sleep over?

The idea of Overmyer Thanksgiving BINGO being something that I've been told to really phych myself up for is really hilarious to me. Tomorrow I'll find out.

I've found more good music. Ever think that for some reason maybe the stash will run out? Sometimes I think that.. and then I remember the mice story about the cheese that they find.. and they have to keep searching for more great cheese for the very reason of their supply potentially running out... you know the story.


I'm a chatty girl. And I gossip. And it causes Jesus' eyes to well up with disappointment. Oh to hold my tongue when I ought, to weigh carefully before I let things flow easily from my lips, to act- instead of react.

Ireland may or may not happen. God, bring in those monies.

And TSO- I just looked for tickets. BUMMER. All VA shows we cancelled... heck, I would have even driven to Richmond.

its 12AM. Happy Thanksgiving. :)

one of those things

Can I just say this..

I love my boyfriend. I'm increasingly proud of him and the decisions he makes on a day to day basis.
The thought process that set this into motion: Saturday night I was hormonally imbalanced due to the breaking down of my uterine lining ;) and was, as a result of such, feeling altogether lonely, with spurts of contempt for no particular person regarding no particular instance... and so- I take it out on Eric. Of course.. because that's what you do in those sort of moments. And then I proceed to call him later on and when he asks me what was wrong earlier- I tell him that I felt so mistreated by him earlier in the day, and that I was so hurt that he didn't reach out to me at all."

He said, "If I were to hang up the phone right now, I would not sleep at all tonight. Please tell me what else is going through your mind.."

And though blindsided completely by this, he responded with grace that still is astounding me. He said, "I don't know what I did, but your feelings are always, always valid. I am so so sorry that I made you feel like that.."

And then he goes on to take a stab in the dark as to HOW and WHY I've come to feel this way- because I myself can't seem to allow my thoughts to settle enough to make sense of anything. He said- "I've been cuddly and romantic all week, and I didn't think about it when I wasn't tonight. But you have had a terribly long week and probably just wanted a hug- some sort of physical affection. We just have to be better aware of each other and when there's something happening emotionally.. say so."


And then there was this, "I love you, Kate."
Because I know he means it.
And I know I love him too.

The Way

I've had some weird dreams past few nights.

But what I really want to talk about is the Way. That was what the early church was referred as back in the Bible. Its because it was an entirely different way of living.
I've said it before: I'm thirsty to find Jesus out. Christians should live differently, should we not?
So far, all I've seen is Christians living like everybody else.. sprinkling a little Jesus here and there. But nobody's ever been attracted to doctrine- even if its true. Few people are interested in a religion that has nothing to say to the world and only offers life after death. I think what people are really wondering about is whether there is life before death. They are attracted to a way of life that stands in glaring contrast to the world were all "stuck" in.

Maybe to start living like the kingdom is "near," "within us," "among us," "at hand," ...and to start praying that it comes "on earth like it is in heaven," we need to start living stories like this:

" Once, there was a small group of kids who decided to go to a park in the middle of the city, and dance and play, laugh and twirl. As they played in the park, they thought that maybe another child would pass by and see them. Maybe that child would think it looked fun and even decide to join them. Then maybe another one would. Then maybe a business man would hear them from his skyscraper. Maybe he would look out the window. Maybe he would see them playing and lay down his papers and come down. Maybe the could teach him to dance. Then maybe another businessman would walk by, a nostalgic man, and he would take off his tie and toss aside his briefcase and dance and play. Maybe the whole city would join the dance. Maybe even the world. Maybe....Regardless, they decided to enjoy the dance."

Henry David Thoreau went to the woods because he wanted to live deliberately, to breathe deeply, and to suck out the marrow of life.

So- I want to narrow my vision to this: Love God, Love people, Follow Jesus.

- encompassing a shared love because of the knowledge and experience of a vast love from a Maker. Who'da thought.

And as I spoke some about this with Eric tonight, I see now that one of the most important "bottom lines" is a selfless spirit. The answers to the same problems in different areas become different answers. I'm rambling at this point.. but really. Its something to think about.

Its always something to think about.

"The kingdom of heaven is at hand."

subtraction, love coupons, and Mr. Clean

There's this sweet silent satisfaction that comes when you work hard to vacuum and clean out the inside of your car.

















I did it this morning.. and as I drove to work shortly there after- I felt like: everybody needs to feel this good about their vehicles.
Maybe that will be a couple Christmas presents for people: "CLEAN CAR +Plus Awesome AESTHETICS!"

This morning was also one of those times I think again and again that God is holding out on me.. something big is going on all around me and he just hasn't told me about it yet.
I've been getting random money for months: Mack FREQUENTLY comes up to me and sticks money in my hand because he feels led, refund checks from college, reimbersment for things I paid for years ago, and this morning- a check came from an old family friend. I played soccer in middle school with their daughter Krissy.. and they tithed a chunk to me.
So where is it all supposed to go?



































My life is changing before my eyes.
I'm hungry for Jesus
ALL the TIME.
I have new understanding
of what it means when we sing,
"Yes, our God is a consuming fire
and a flame that burns down
deep in my soul."
I find that I'm STARVING
until I meet Him each day.
And he doesn't end-
I can only get deeper,
there's only ever more to it,
to Him.
He's so good.

And I've been thinking too- about what it means to have a constant missional mindset. I lose focus and get disappointed sometimes because I've been at home for 5 months- why aren't I overseas? What am I working toward accomplishing? Where are the mile-markers? Where is God, really, in all of this?
And shoot- he's right here. He's always right here.
Maybe part of the big plan is for me to go to LA in Jan.
Or maybe part of the plan is for me to reach deeper into Harp and Bowl at KPC.
Heck, thats something! Maybe part of the plan is for me to invest into KPC in this season.
Maybe its for me to mend relationships in my family.
Maybe its for me to start a new family down the road.























SEEK, SEEK, SEEK.
1 Chronicles 28:9 For the Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts. For if you seek him, he will be found by you.

Isaiah 45:19
I have not spoken in secret, from somewhere in a land of darkness; I have not said to Jacob's descendants, 'Seek me in vain.' I, the Lord, speak the truth; I declare what is right.
SEEK, SEEK, SEEK.

marginalized, making history.

I don't think for even one second that, in spite of the next 3-5 years of my life being the most expensive, Barack Obama will make those years any easier.

I don't LIKE the idea of him as our President.
I kind of shudder at the thought of him leading our country.
And I can only picture falty leadership leading a nation to disaster and further idolatry.

That said, I know no situation is out of God's control. Nothing slips through his fingers, nothing happens without his knowledge. So, as if something large needed to happen as (yet another) wake up call for the church in the west- this one has come. How's this for a good reason to start a lifestyle of radical, day in and day out intercession.
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P E RS ONAL L Y

I feel like my life is at a standstill and God is asking me, "Kate, how do you want to live the life I have blessed you with?" And my unreserved answer is that I choose to give it all back to Him. Everything I am, everything I do, every breathe belongs to the Most High.
That the Lamb may receive the reward for his suffering.

And the "life" that I speak of, I believe, is one lived out in Acts 29- I get so agitated that "Christianity" has strayed so far from following Christ. Theres something inherent missing- because even if we were simply 'believers' and not so much 'doers', believing with conviction would lead to a change in actions. DOING something different.
We don't even know what it is to love our God and our neighbors anymore.
I want to find that out.
I want to spend my life seeking God's face, obeying radically the faintest whispers.
Its what I'm called to. It's what all of us are called to. The 1st commandment is to love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind. THEN love your neighbor as yourself.
If only we could get that down.
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WON DE R FU LLY

I need your peace in me.
I need your peace in me.

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CRU CIA L

Matthew 5:45