Motion Sickness

Out the front door to a world cold as ice
Pull my hat down and pick up my stride
I watch my breath as it steams the air to white
Winter breaks me at her start every time
Even though I'm prepared for the cold
In a while I'll be doing fine, I'm told
I know, I know

It just takes some getting used to, is all

I crossed an ocean, I took a lover
Took a picture outside the palace door
Showed my friend, he said he'd been there before
Crossed a river on a path train underground
Never thought I'd come back to my hometown
My eyes adjust to the dark as we go down
I look around

It just takes some getting used to..

It's not the changes but the s p a c e s in between
It's not the story but the cuts between the scenes
It's the part where your eyes can't focus
The minute just before you notice
The images align naturally

It just takes some getting used to, is all.......

16 bits.

1. My guitar is crapping out. Thats gonna take money.
2. I really don't want to spend more of my time inside the walls of a church. Even one that I love.
3. I want to see a school of worship start up in VA Beach.
4. I want to go backpacking overseas. By myself.
5. School starts again for me in January. In Jesus' Name, I WILL get it done this time.

6. I curse more these days. Its not very becoming. Well, it is. Just.. becoming something ugly.
7. Job hunting again.
8. Just made the most BA bulletin board ever.

9. My heart is aching again. Its that empty feeling that makes my eyes well up and my throat constrict. I miss Eric.
10. My HOUSE IS COMING TOGETHER.
11. But we need a couch. A cheep one.
12. And a piano. A cheep, beautiful sounding one.
13. ... I hate speakerphone.
14. I love my car. Thank you, my Jesus.
15. LOVE "Breaking Away" by Ratatat. Best 4min 19sec of my work day. hah.



16. back to work. meh.

Wants vs. Needs

I want: an upright piano


But first, I need: to pay off some debt.

Then, this baby will be mine:

these stand out

stand out 

stuck

Yeah. Thats how I feel.

Unable to move at the pace I want to. Having to make difficult decisions a lot this week.
Having to put distance where my heart feels at home.

I am overwhelmed and numb at the same time. I'm afraid of what might be happening.
I'm terrified of loss.


God, You are my safety.