"My Vision"

"Wherever you are, be all there. Live to the hilt every situation that you determine to be the will of God." -Jim Elliot

1/29/08 Tues.

What would it look like to have a clear vision from You? To have something so specifically planted.. how would that appear visually?

I think You do have clear vision- specific vision in mind for me.

I believe I've tapped into that here and there- and each time Your face lights up and you wish that there was more time spent on my behalf because there is more release to be given on Yours.

What if the songs that I write came directly from Your mouth- came from Your heart?

What if the lyrics made people cry?

What if millions of people heard the instruments and KNEW there was something in that for them?

What if there was an identity release in place of crisis?

What if my worship art was detailed?

What if it was assembled to Holy Perfection, and then given up?

What if Your character was embodied accurately through media?

What if mankind's perception of humanity changed entirely?

Maybe I'm just a visionary. But You are the GREAT visionary.

I know You have release You're longing to extend.

But You won't. Not right away.

You want to know exactly who You can trust with these specifics- these visions.

You want those who are lovesick worshipers- whose hearts are steadfast toward you.

You want to deliver the climactic change that all creation groans and waits for.

It's YOU!

Your perspectives, Your declarations, Your beauty, Your character, Your love, Your consistency.

And so I will petition Your heart for the vision- the revelation- the specifics you wish to be revealed through me. I am Yours. I say it again over: I am Yours. I belong to You and no other. Grant wisdom to carry out the things You impart. Grant strength to stand amidst the adversarial. Sing over me the new songs of your heart.

Feed the entire human race the way you fed the 5 thousand.

2.Tim.1:6-7

Sing Over Me

born June 12th, 2008.


Its my joy to honor you
To find my rest in the shadow
Of your covering, you're covering me

Sing over me
With rivers overflow
With oil and water you fill my soul
Sing over me

To love you Lord my God
With all my heart and strength
All of me, Lord take all of me

Sing over me
With rivers overflow
With oil and water you fill my soul
Sing over me (2x)

Just stay with me all day with me
And speak to me
And let me drink you in

Worthy

5-14-08

I don't want to leave our conversations thinking
For minutes and hours
Now what did that mean?

Can't you mean what you say and just say what you mean!
Its simple that way, nothing left to dream
You come alive to me
You're all I need
You come alive to me, nothing left to dream

To find me endearing means so many things
But why do you let me wander that way?
You cannot keep quiet, you've opened your mouth
Whatever it is, get it out

Just mean what you say
And say what you mean!
Its simple that way, nothing left to dream
You come alive to me

The revelation of a revelation
Could (would/have had)have everything change (repeat)
Everything changed

Don't be silent
Respond when prompted
Pursue in passion, seek out vigilence

YOU are our God
Forever we give you praise
You alone are worrrrrrthy

Don't write me little notes here and there.
They'll keep me on the edge, but the edge is where I've been.
I wanted to be in your arms.

Say what you mean, come out and say what you mean
Its simple that way, nothing to dream
You come alive to me.

You hold everything together

June, 14, 2008.

Moving out.
Dad and Eric talked about this too. After thinking about it for a while, I think I owe it to my family and to dad to coincide with the boundaries he has set- and comply willingly and obediently with what he asks. If that means being home at 11, then honoring that. I realize now that he doesn't need to keep tabs on me, but he wants to know where I am and what I'm doing and who I'm with because he wants me to be safe. He wants me the best things for me. Understanding of that will come as I submit to him. I love him. And I love him. Both of them.
Tomorrow is Father's Day. I want to write him an oober honest letter. He is truly my favorite. I'm so thankful for him. I'll do it.


The Party Scene
It makes me SO sad, and so disappointed to hear about tonight. I think you can totally go out and have a drink, have a good time with friends and such. But that is a DANGEROUS line to walk. Naph, Sarah, David, John, Rachel, Emily went out. John got drunk and started cursing and smoking. Sarah and JP got flirty. DT and Rachel may have kissed. Emily and Naph were the only sober ones. Emily- most likely because she is afraid to get drunk.. well good, its not a good place to be when you don't have any control and little recollection of your actions and words. Naph- because she KNOWS she doesn't want to be like that. She, I feel, is the only one who has a handle on things. You can have so much fun without being sloshed. Up side: you don't wake up with a headache. You don't throw up. You keep your friends. You actually MAKE new ones. You weigh your words and actions.

Chris Tomlin- I Stand Amazed (How Marvelous)
^and I broke.

Where is the righteousness? Where is the holiness in THAT lifestyle that we are called to? Those guys lost all authority to speak into DT's life.
WHY did they risk it? The doors are further apart now.
The life of medicated compromise.


Christ, be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives
Christ, be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives
You're the center of the universe
Everything was made in you, Jesus
breathe of every living thing
Everything was made for you
you hold everything together
You hold everything together
You hold everything together
You hold everything together

the music of my heart... dun dun dun!!!

SONGS:

You reached down from on high

And took hold of me

You drew me out of deep waters

And rescued me

Rise up, Oh Lord

Consume me. 

______________

Faith in the midst

Hope in the dark

Strength in failing

Life coming out of death

Why do I fall all over myself all over again

And over again, when its you. 

Its you.

_______________

Isn't it true that when things are least "normal"

You are in it completely?

I know you're with me completely

Thats enough for me

_______________

I want to know your heart

I want to know what it might look like for you and I

to be best friends.

I want to learn to position myself for you to use me

I want to reflect your glory like a mirror reflects so clearly.

I want to sing prophetically.

I want to just SING!

I want o write songs.

I want to play guitar.

I want to travel for you

the way that I wish I breathed in and out for you.

I want the husband you intend for me.

I want the goals and aspirations you have for me.

But more than all that

I want you. You started it.

_______________

There is nothing I would rather do

Than spend my time with you- Use me. Freely. Mightily.

_______________

The Bridegroom is coming

The breakthrough is coming

Go out to meet Him!

GO OUT TO MEET HIM!

_______________

Consider the lilies

Standard's are being defiled

Morals are non-existent

Love in a risky way

Morals will never be developed/acquired if TRUTH is never told

Standards will never raise unless they are challenged

_______________

I've been a prostitute for so long

Giving and giving to those

Whose payment is never enough

I heard the voice of my father the other day

What else must I do for you to stay here

With me, so I'm

Running back to you, Oh Lord

Right now

Making sure that these are not just words

This time

I'll make my heart to never turn

Its back on you

Never forget the ring you've placed on my finger

To my God

Em-C-G

_______________

I want to know the TRUTHS of God

We rend our hearts, we look to you

Where, O death, is your victory?

Where, O death, is your sting?

Set our hearts free as we look to you 

and we praise you.

For in you the fatherless find compassion

_______________

What is man that you are mindful of him?

Ps. 8:4-6

_______________

Ps. 139

Lead me in the way everlasting- for you know my heart

_______________